我很想家，很孤单。。。。。。。。。。

我真得很想一家人开开心心在一起？？？为什么这样简单的要求都不能达到吗？？
不知为什么突然间我的眼泪一直留不停，我很想念我们一家人快快乐乐在一起的生活，为什么我的家会变成这么样呢？？？有谁能帮帮我？我觉得我快溺死了，我很想早个人能听听我诉苦，可是我又怕他们会看不起我的家人，我不要这样的结果。我真得很幸苦，有时候会想如果我死了就一了百了，可是如果我这样做我觉得很自私，我必须想我家人的感受。我还能怎样？
我还能做什么才能让我的家人开心？？？你是我哥哥，我不能不理你。无论你做错过什么事我都会原谅你，我还是把你当成我永远永远的哥哥。
我每天都告诉自己，我必须坚强，可是我真得很幸苦，我快承受不了了。我很需要人来安慰我，可是我早不到适合的人。我都快二十三岁了，我深得很怕孤单，看见我的朋友们一个个都有半绿了，可是我还是孤孤单单的。开始觉得寂寞了。很想有人陪我过日子。

getting crazy.....

What are you thinking now?
you know we are worried you.one whole night you dint come back you also dint wan to call us,you hand phone no battery you also can call from public phone or you can borrow you friend's hand phone to sms or call us.
We already make appointment together that we go breakfast together but you didn't turn up.We really worried about you,what are you thinking now?If you told us,we will try our best to help you.We are looking for you at gurney.We look every single of coffee shop...We just want you to be alright.Sometime i really think did you treat the us as family?Did you know that what meaning of FAMILY?
Daddy ask me about you today,i don't know how to answer him.He said me didn't care about you..Did i?i really don't know what to answer him d.i can see daddy is very about,just he pretend that he is OK only.
If really can,i don't want you go but you stay here is only between life and dead.When you go China you still have the 50% chance.We have to take the risk rather than you stay here.We have no choice,we want you be a good guy.Sound like we forcing you to go there.
Yesterday i almost quarrel with ah hou cause making decision which day of flight that want to let you go.I want you go there asap,i don't wan you stay long here,cause i worried about your safety.I hope you will understand us.
Please don't let us worried about you.I wait you come back home every night,but yet you dint come back.We always support you.....always.Please let us know if you have any problem.

我该如何是好？？

我该怎么做？我真的不像你走，可是如果你不走，全家人都会为你而烦恼。我真的不知道这样是帮了你还是害了你？我开始盲目了。我知道大哥不想让你这么快走，可是还有什么办法？我们不让你去吉隆坡上飞机是由远颖的，无论飞机票在轨我们都回想办法让你从槟城上飞机。我们不想还有什么事发生。真得很不想。
你也知道五月很多节日，包过我五月有三个人生日，还有母亲节。我们都想和你一起庆祝，真得很像一家人快快乐乐的在一起。我真的不忍心让你那么快走，可是我还能怎样？你一天不去搞定那边的东西，那些事一天都不能解决。我们都不知你去那边会怎样，虽然你说你没什么好骗，可是我们很怕你会发审什么事，这里离开那边不是很靠近。如钩发生什么事你要我们如何是好？
爸爸从头到尾都不知道发生什么事，他能接受吗？那天我听爸爸和朋友说他有高血压，他能承受得了吗？每次爸爸提到你他都很烦恼，他很担心你，可是他不要让人知道，可能这就是男人的尊严。有谁能告诉我欧不告诉我们，我该如何是好？
有时候我真得很想把一切都告诉爸爸可是我又害怕，我害怕他会胡思乱想，我怕他的血压会高。我真得快发疯了。
我真的真的不像你走，我没别的选择。因为你什么事都不告诉我们，我们无法帮到你。看到你变成这么样我们真得很心痛，除了把你送去那边，我们真的不知道还能怎么样？
我还能怎样呢？

到底发生什么事？？？？

你到底是怎么了？为何我的哥哥会便成这么样呢？？？
你现在怎的变得让我们好害怕，你有问题为什么不告诉我们？你让我们好担心。我还是第一吃看到妈妈哭了。她是一个很坚强的女人，重来没问题可以难道她，可是你让她掉眼泪了。我们大家都分开那么久了。好不容易才相聚在一起，为什么会变得让大家都不开心呢？
我真得很希望你能像以前一样，傻傻的，有什么不开心你都会告诉我们，不要好像现在，什么事都受在心里，一个人去承担。你让我们好心痛。就连爸爸去看你后一直愁眉苦脸，一只问我你到底是怎么了？我怎得很想告诉他一切，可是我怕她承受不了这个事实。我该如何是好？
你要我们怎么做你才告诉我们你到底发生什么事了？
既然你现在回家了，就别去想别的了。你一决定去那边了，就得放弃这里的所有一切，安心过去拿边工作。不必担心我们会怎样，我们回过的很好的。你也不必担心你的护照或者什么的，我们会想办法帮你。你只要告诉我们拟向怎样。我们是一家人嘛。
你还记得小时候，我们三个人是怎么过吗？还记得我和你再续哦校被人欺负吗？记得我们一起涛学区瀑布玩水，以期逃学一玩游戏机吗？你不怀念以前我们一起开开心心的日子吗？
我真很的希望你老实的告诉我们一切，不要再让我们担心你了好不好？

Trip to genting

I went to genting with my friend last week..this is first time i went holiday with my friends.such a good holiday for me even is jus a 2 days 1 night.

We meet a Sri Lanka friend.At first we thought he original from malaysia and pure indian boy from penang,coz he sit a same bus from penang to genting.When we ask him only we know that we from Sri Lanka and came here for holiday 2 weeks.

We cant manage to get his contact.He such a handsome guy and funny guy.He told us that since we reach there about 3 am after we take a number than they go casino till 12noon after they check in they went to casino again till 3pm and continue go casino after 4pm till the nite,and they continue go casino till 2pm when we need to take bus go back penang.

We hope that can meet him again if possible,so that we can get his contact number or email.Both of us have wonderfully holiday there.We plan to go there again in May.

This time we go KL and genting oso.So that we can finish to see the 18 Chamber in Chin Swee Temple genting..